no idea what title

2 days didnt post already
what had happen?
i knew some of my results already
haha
but then the results are still good
cause the bad ones i havent know yet
haha
plan to go out today(saturday) but mum dont allow
said i have to study at home
so after i post this i have to study :(
promised watchreen but didnt able to do it. feel bad
anyway after spm i'll be free
spm is near. on thursday i just got the timetable for spm.. wow.. the time is sooooo packed!
no time to rest
almost everyday the exam starts from 8a.m. till 4.30p.m. how to rest?
i scare i'll sleep while exam
haha
but luckily this time the exam i wont be in the hall so not so pressure
haha
i'll be in class.. maybe is with my clasS? xD
anyway
i will work hard in this period
wanna try my best and get good results
dont wanna disappoint my mum
and i had a deal with my mum
if i lose, i'll be in poor state
haha
recently i like a song
So What by Pink
good music and lyrics
i wanna be like in the song except the rockstar part
:]

study hard wiing yi!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! ^^

Poem

Life is full of sorrows
Life is full of happiness
Each accompanied by tears
Each accompanied by laughters
People are different
People are special
They are all around you
Wherever you may go
Different people different hearts
Different voices different lives
But there is one that might
Shares our lives and make it bright
It depends on your luck
To find the ugliest duck
And make it the swan of your heart
-wiing yi-

smoking~

yesterday my friends were suspecting me smoking
lol.. haha.. it made me laugh! i'll show some pictures that i'm smoking later on
xD
today the day was fine
not as bad as i thought
;]
trial finally is over
finally i can sleep early without worrying bout what questions will be out tomorrow
but i'm still scare of 1 thing.. my results
i do not want to know my results as i did vr vr badly, i think it will be my worst so far :S
left about a month before SPM
time's running out
but it also means my freedom will reach soon!
haha
wait for me ;D
here are some of the pictures i took this afternoon
me...smoking... hahaha

"smoking"~ =P

enjoying my "cigarette"

ta daa~!! my cigarette = lollipop!

heart skipped a beat

just received your sms
about the china milk issue and it's a forwarded message
but don't know why
my heart beats faster
untill i could feel the beat in my brain.. hurts my mind
i feel breathless..

think of you again

today when i woke up

i wished ytd was just a bad dream

but i know it is not

have to face the reality

that you are out of my life

today at school

my add maths paper 2. i don't knw how to answer at all

guess i'm ready to fail this paper

but i will do more exercise after this

i hv to thank you for being out of my life

let me could concentrate in my studies for this 1 month before i'll sit for the exam

now there's nothing else for me to worry or care about anymore except spm

while bathing and having lunch

i thought of the situations if we are friends

we had tht experience before

so i guess by the time we could talk and laugh again

will be the time when i'm over you

or else i couldn't treat you like a normal friend

but no matter what our relation is, if you need me, i'll be there for you. maybe just as a normal friend..

no more of it

finally i felt the coldness in you
really cold
finally my tears had fall
will never shed my tears for you again
you're out of my life
i'm such a fool to be serious with you
your feelings changed so fast
so fast till i couldn't manage to be prepared for it
i'm crushed
luckily i have my friends
thanks to you all. i'll be fine and i'll be strong
nothing's gonna bring me down
there's still much for me to do
can't stop here

we could be friends? why i don't think so?
it's best that we don't contact anymore
don't wish to be fooled again
for the last time i'll be writing this and feeling this to you
"i love you"
no more of it after now

love is only for myself
for others
will only bring hurt to myself

tears

feel like crying
but tears just running in the eyes
i'm sure at night i will cry
silently..
thought of a song
"lonely won't leave me no more"
right now
it will always be beside me
follows me wherever i go

gone going

just back from tuition
while at tuition
i sent a message to you
finally i got an answer from you
after all these.. all i get was an alphabet.. 'k'..
heart was filled with disappoinments and thorns
but i had expected it
there's nothing i can do
but to move on with my life without you
i will try to get over you
soon.. before the exam.. i will get over you in a week
i can't waste my time anymore
i'm satisfied
at least you are honest with me
i accept it
just can't believe that it all changed so fast
been fooled again
now all that's left for me--no more.. all gone..

happy morning

I started off my day well
went to had breakfast with Watchreen
planned to go Old Town but it hasn't open yet
so changed to Jalan Tengah's hawker food stalls
ate quite much
then back home accompanie parents to breakfast again but I only had a cup of tea
:)
although there's still this gap between me and mum, at least we're talking
I'm scared that we won't talk :S
now I want to study add maths a bit before i go tuition
later afternoon will have tuitions
will be a tired one
'sigh~'
tomorrow will have my add maths paper 2 exam
so dead..
:X

wasting my time

till now
i'm still awake
wasting my sleeping time
what am i doing?
other than staring at the computer
if i use these time to study
for sure i'll score well
too bad i'm not
i'm just wasting my time

you've changed

nowadays
i wonder what are we
what am i to you
are we still the same?
or maybe we have became strangers
recently, both of us seldom message
everytime i message you, i'll feel that i'm disturbing you
i dare not chat with you long
now, i don't even know what can i talk with you
there's no more connection between us
i hate this feeling
but what can i do?
i should be happy as now you are more concentrate in your studies
to you the most important is studies
i totally agree with you
but the way you treat me now is like i'm the last thing in your mind
you gave me a feeling that you don't care for me anymore
you don't even care whether i'm exists or not
you had forgotten about me
i kept on thinking that maybe we should reconsider our relationship
i don't want to be having an empty relation
maybe i shouldn't think much about this and put all my concentration in my exam
maybe after the exam then only we consider whether we should be together
right now all i need is just an answer from you
do you still love me?
why i can't feel it anymore?
want to know my answer for my question?
you don't love me anymore

i've been forgotten by you.. i'm threw behind your mind.. i'm a stranger to you now..

tired day

just back from shopping
had a fight with mum..
but it was my fault. so i can't blame her..
but why will i become like that?
why will i became so money faced?
she told me something that i think is the truth
i really care about faces.. why? why can't i be more caring to them?
why will i becoming one of the type of person that i hate?
i don't want to be that type of person
i want to change it
i must change!
hope tomorrow will be alright :)

physics exam

today's physics..
what else can i say..
i'll sure score vrvrvr superbly "well"
till my report book will have another red ink again
haha
wait till my mum find out and i'll be away from the computer for long till after spm
but that's most likely not gonna happen
haha..cz i'm glued to the computer
:P
anyway..
if i can get 10 marks for that paper,chemistry,and pass for the others..wow.. i'll be satisfied (truthfully i'll be more satisfied if i passed all!! :])
2 more days of exam and will be the real one
no more time
haiz
so scare and tired of it
wanna relax!!

2 days

Two days without your messages
feel so alone but what else can i do?
u asked me to concentrate in studies but i cant
keep on checking on my phone
wish that will receive your message
but always with disappointments
i know u have to study too as your exam is reaching
so i'll text you after my trial
haha
i cant stop myself from thinking of you
everynight will look through your pictures
read back the texts you sent me
i promise you, i'll try to put more concentration in my studies
i will do well and better than what you expected! i must!! :)
i cant wait till december
to meet u again
hold u in my arms again
i miss you..

important period before exam

finally i'm back in writing a post

haha.. long time didnt write though..

never realized it

anyway..i met with my babe during may holiday

spent some days there too

haha

it was a memorable one though we had a bit of unexpected things happened

anyway, now i'm in the middle of my school's trial exam

i'm gonna have to work 200% harder if i wanna score well. or else it's gonna be disappoinment

tmr will be having BM paper 2 and physic paper 2.. both also not my pro subjects.. always fail in these two..TT

anyway, been *studying* LATELY in d middle of the night

haha.. hence i gt thick eyebags and dark circles..

looks so OLD now..

next tues will finish my trial thn the real one will be coming

wish to discipline myself

haha

best of luck to me tmr ;)