best night ever!

i will not forget the best night ever in my life till now!
24th of October 2008
graduation dinner for the 2008 Penang Chinese Girls' High School' s Form5 graduates
the committee members did a superb job i must say
all of us think that too. love y'all. miss it.. wished time would stop at yesterday night
the night was fun and memorable
it was the best graduation dinner ever
even our principal also said it's good
:D
yesterday the programmes were awesome. though i missed some of it but i know they are good.
i was so high throughout the night. shouting all the way, untill i almost lost my voice. it was like partying all night long!
my class's interclass item won the best! we are so surprised to won it because other classes were good too.. ying wan cried and cant believe what she heard. haha.. i was so.. i dont know how to describe.. wow!~ love the feeling! haha
everyone was at their best in performing and dressing
all of them were so pretty. especially my class -- S5I
whole bunch of pretty girsl! i'm so lucky to be in the class. my new laopo,sin yee, became so pretty. abu, jinny, all of u.. wow!! blew me away! love you all..
my laopo.. haha.. also pretty.. as usual.. :)
at the end.. many people cried.. i wanted to cry to but i cant.. my tears just wont fall. i wish i cried too.. such a wonderful night. sigh~ :(
i bet every PCGHS 2008 form 5 girls will remember 24 of October forever. it will always be in our memories. i love 2008 PCGHS's form 5s!! you girls rock!!!
i'm sp happy to be in this school and have all of you as my friends
and oh, nicole. haha.. though i only known u better yesterday, we had a great night. had soooo much fun with you. must hangout again sometimes wey. xD.. love you hun~^^

S5I/2008 forever!!!! i love you!! S5I is the best!!! best class ever!!

new camera

yay!! finally today get a new camera.. a SLR camera
but it's not for me..i'll only use it for like a week
cz it's bro's.. next week he's coming back and i'm gonna say bye-bye to this camera..
this camera is nice
haha.. 1st time i got a camera like this..
it's Nikon D40.. dont really know what's d difference la. haha

runaway from school

didnt go to school today as they didnt go also
stayed at home doing nothing except wasting my time on9 d whole morning
later gonna go out to see camera. bro need one for his studies..
finally i can have that type of camera. haha.. i wanted to buy since beginning of the year.. still saving my money.. suddenly bro said he needs one so mum gonna buy for him.
which means i dont have to buy ..
just now signed in to msn.. aunt sent me a message saying grandpa fell down from picking rambutans.. i bet he must have fell from quite a height.. he's in hospital now. aunt is with him. but why they didnt tell mum? just now sent a message to inform mum but she didnt reply me about anything yet.. hope he's doing alright
hope he'll be fine..

神, 保佑他吧！

hard to breathe

it had started since few months ago
sometimes i feel like my heart is pain..
my heart is weak..
not strong enough to pump the blood
today.. i felt it again
while driving, my heart was pain again
seeing nowadays many young people died.. made me feel that what if i died too?
what if suddenly my heart stop beating? what if suddenly you contact me but no answer?
maybe you wont even know
if i really die, how will you feel? maybe it's just normal thing that happens daily..and you dont feel anything
but i wont do tht.. i dont wish that to happen as spm is so near.. i dont wanna lose my chane to take the exams. i need them

lies.. fakes..

today i had a weird feeling
while at school i was so happy. playing with them.. talking here laughing there
but dont know why after school dismissed, while driving.. thought of stupid questions
i think back of someone again..think that what if someday tht someone finds me back? what shall i do? but i gave myself an answer : that someone is not going to find you back anymore. it's over..
i cant really get over it though outside i may seem like it.
while driving back from school, i was so moody. dont wanna talk at all
after reached home, only me alone. dad went out.
i looked at myself in the mirror, i dont know who am i anymore
what am i? i feel like i'm a faker. i feel that everything that had happened was not happening in my life. it all became memories.. i feel like crying. i wanna spill out everything but i cant. i dont know what to say to release my feelings.. i kept on telling my friends that i wanna flirt. thinking of it, i know i cant. people kept on telling me that i can find a better one.. but my problem is i cant find the one i have feel with. why i cant move on my life?
i really hate my life
i wish i could control the time. control everything that's gonna happen.
it's been a month.. i told myself that i would not believe in you again.. you gave me fake hopes, fake happiness, fake laughters.. you filled my life with lies.. i really wish i can stop thinking of you. but i cant. i still wish to hear from you.. if we have one more chance, i might will choose to be lied again.. choose to let my life be filled with lies again..

for now, i know i'm stupid.

bruises

yesterday dont know what happened to me
stepped on the wrong steps and almost fell off from the stairs
luckily i held on the bars but i still got bruises
then at night, walk pass the chairs also knocked on the chair.. what la.. really so careless.. :S
hope i wont be this careless in the exam
haha..
today dont know what happen
ytd 2am only slept but today 8am when the alarm rang i woke up! amazingly.. haha.. normally i would just off the alarm and snoozed off
xD
yester went to the chem intensive class for 3 hrs.. unfortunately we only abled to learn the last 2 chapter of form4.. form 5 didnt touch at all.. i'm dead.. but thanks to her, i'm now more clear in those chapters =)

my bruises =(

graduate magazine

yay~
today finally got our graduate magazines
thanks to all the committee's workship in completing the magazine
and also the form 5 students.. haha..
i never thought we'll get it so fast as we were late behind when we submitted our things in
haha.. anyway
i'm happy *grin*

this whole week.. i didnt study at all.. i'm so dead now.. yaiks.. exam is in 3 weeks!! and till now i still hv to many unanswered questions.. oh my... TT

13 Oct 2008

finally i knw my english results already
haha
i got 77%.. :)
hv to be satisfied with it
just now while having dinner watched leo ku's music video
i dont know why but that video made me cried
maybe too romantic or too sad
either way, suddenly feel the lyrics are so true..
*sigh*
that's life learned a new phrase today :

" let loose of what you can't control. serenity will be yours "

hope it's true
haha~

miss it

read back the old messages you sent me
think back how sweet and happy we used to be
your promisses, your words to me.. no longer true
heart broken
miss those days..

you made me happy

yesterday and the day before yesterday
suddenly i look back at your pictures
i didn't know why but there was smile on my face when i was looking at your pictures
i thought i've gotten over you. but seems like the feelings are still there. just buried deep inside. kept silently as memory.
you look as happy as always in the pictures
maybe i thought back how we used to be
maybe it's because the smile on your face, makes me smile
many things could make me happy, but not as happy as u made me
i always think that i'm lucky
to be with you
though we're over, i still feel lucky
maybe in the future i will find another one that can make me happy as u did
no matter what, may God bless you and protect you
may you be happy and healthy always
i'll always be there for you.

i didnt pass my physic :(

i was wrong.. haha.. i didnt pass my physic..i only got 47%.. haiz.. and i also failed my add maths
so sad.. i only scored 46%.. anyway, add maths i admit i sucks in it.. will work harder in it
so totally i failed 3 subjects! =X
till now the only subject i still don't know is english
but i think i won't fail it. haha.
today was damn tired
slept for 3 hrs
yesterday was sleepy too
slept at 10.30pm. long time didnt sleep that early already
today will study till midnight if i can. have to race with the time already. i already lose to it long time. must chase it back! ;)
now i wanna go hv my dinner
so late only eat sure will be fat already
sigh~

what's my feeling?

yesterday was my school's graduation dinner performances rehearsal. i met her again. but i'm glad as i don't have that feeling anymore. haha. i was so happy for the whole day. today met her again. both of us acted like strangers. it's normal to me. hehe. i don't know what's my feeling. all i know is, i don't wanna disturb her anymore. she's happy, i'm happy for her. but i will find my own happiness too. :) after being single again, i found my happiness again. i found back my long lost freedom, carefree, happy-go-lucky pals. i'm glad that they're back with me again. oh yea.. today after recess, on my way to my class with 2 of my friends, there were this bunch of form 4 girls.. i don't know what are they talking about. maybe is about my friends and me or maybe not. but the way they say is so sarcastic. back in class, my friends told me that those girls always stare at them, like they were their enemies but in fact they dont even know them. she said they will look at you from head to toe like examinine you. why don't they examinine themselves? why they wanna spend their time in observing other people? better go use that time to learn to be polite and upgrade themselves. anyway, these girls have no relations with me. i don't wanna have anything with them too.. less people less problems. :P

i passed!!

haha.. i'm happy to know that i passed my malay paper for the first time this year!! for the past years i have been studying, i never fail my malay paper. but do not know why, i failed twice this yr! and now for the trial results, i finally passed! haha.. though the result is nt tht good, just got 56%, i should be satisfied. ;) other than that, i think i also passed my physics.haha. thank God for it. this trial exam, i didnt really finish studying all the chapters. some i just kinda flipped through. after studied this few days, feel that i should study earlier, then i could obtain more marks in the trial exam. but it's too late.. boo-hoo~ now i know most of my results already. i failed my history. only got 47%. teacher said it's ok. above 30 in our school trial we could pass in the spm already. so i guess maybe i could get a B if i work harder on it. besides that, i also know my chinese. same marks as my malay paper. hope my english won't get the same marks though. if can sure hope will get higher. haha. i'm scare of my language subject. my languages are terrible.. i can't write well. i'm just always out of idea what to write for the essays. i'm ready to let go of tht 3 A's. :X

bro's gone

finally
bro had gone back to KL
haha
finally peace is back
but my camera is gone
sobx~
bro took it as he might need it
but i took something from him -- PSP
haha
actually i was quite surprised that he would allow me to have it
*grin*
anyway
last few days holiday is too short
not even enough for me to finish a subject
haiz.. i'm still studying slowly form5 physic. form 4's i havent touch yet! no more time for me
feel like crying
these days i feel happy
no idea why.maybe i'm enjoying my life
no worries, no burdens and no controlling
totally free..well except control from my mum and worries for the spm
SPM really kills me
left 2 more months then i'll be partying or maybe working
haha
my college.. mostly will be in penang as KL's life expenses will be a burden. hope i'll manage to find a good college to go into. ;)

how my bro described me

this thing is like ages.haha.. i think like 2 yrs ago of what my bro wrote about me.haha.
anyway.. i like to keep it :)

She is cute when she was young,

She is rude when she grow up,

She is sweet when she eager for things,

She is mean when she have her things,

She is sad when i m happy,

She is happy when she make fun of me,

She is kind when she likes it,

She is cruel when nobody around,

She looks normal when face to face,

She looks crazy with the picture of her face,

She is good at sports or others i dunno,

She is bad at singing i m for sure,

She is the only sister i have,

For now or ever that will never change!!

Oi, nice lerrr?? Whahahahaha

PS: it’s true of what he wrote about me..

;p

a song i like recently..love the words

眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

finally i found out

haha..what i found out?
something which disturbed me
but now i found out already, i'm good as normal
the thing is.. i found out my ex is in a relationship.. with who?? someone i don't know
haha.. but then it's a bit disappoinment when i heard about it due to something she told me last time
i couldn't concentrate in my study
anyway, now i found out the real thing
and i can concentrate again ^^
all i can say is i wish her every happiness^^
it's a good thing she's over me
haha
am i over her? right now, i'm not.. i'm in d precess of it
but i will soon be over her
haha
after spm, i'm gonna be aiming for a new one! better than my past! haha
and i'll be happy with her.
right now, spm will be my aim.
wish me luck (cross fingers)