misses

I still miss you. everytime ehenever I'm alone, I think of you, think of the days we've been together, think of the times we spent together. Everytime read back the messages you sent me, I feel happy and lucky. I really miss those messages. I wish I could receive it from you again but I know that won't happen at any chance. I still keep hoping for you to come and be with me again. I always want to ask you whether you were happy when we were together. I really hope I made you happy. Now I don't know how's your life, are you happy now? What are you busying lately? Have you get ready for school? How's your music classes going? How's your studies? How was your Christmas? What are your wishes for next year? What are you goals? I just wish I could be back the one I used to be in your heart. Too bad now I don't even think I have a place in your heart. This year is my happiest year and worst year till now. Happiest is because finally me and you had sweet memories and spent some quality times together. Those were my happiest days. Now everynight, the memoirs are my lullaby to sleep. I have no idea how long I need to forget about you. Maybe will be a very long time. Till that time comes, I might have huge changes till you won't recognize me.

no hurt at all.. yesh~

today was a funny day. haha.. I don't know exactly what had happened :S. today when i woke up in the afternoon, received messages.. one of them was from somebody.. asked me to give her a chance again.. i was like, owh should I after what had happened in the past? but still i gave her. then until night, she regret. haha.. i should have guessed that.. anyway,i' so used to it that i dont feel hurt anymore. maybe is because i don't have feelings to her anymore? if so i must thank a special person for helping me to get over her.. haha.. too bad now that special person is the one my heart is beating for. when only i will find another special person to help me get over her? this kinda love will be endless in my lfe. when only i will find the one that i can stay together with for long? hard to find it. really admire those people that can find their true love and get married just like ellen and portia. look at them now, so happily married.. haha. now i'm just day dreaming.. will have to wake up and live in reality soon. anyway, i'm happy with my life now. no boundaries except for the money case. :( i still got love from people! haha.. love it.. xD

13/12

today has got to be the dirtiest day i've been after so long. after woke up from bed in noon, had brunch then watch tv for a short while, then i continued to sleep again. t about 3 30pm, woke up as i wanted to folow my cousin to klcc to find her shoes. imagine,for the first time in my life, i didnt bathe and went out. my gosh~ i was so lazy and i thought about it, since i' going to bathe when i'm back from outside and i was only going out for a while, dont have to bathe lo. haha.. went to klcc,thr's way hell lot of people. i was like shocked cause i thought klcc wont have so many people. i think it's because of the pc fair that's why there are so many people..even we hv to queue up for the escalator.. lol. :S later on, went to the pc fair
1st time came to kl's pc fair different from penang's pc fair. really kl is better.. the halls and all, different categories in different halls.. much better than the pc fair in penang. haha.. xD.. anyway, christmas is reaching.. jingle bells anywhere? haha.. i love christmas songs!just why my family dont celebrate christmas? sigh~

i'm in KL

woosh~ finally i'm in kl.. i had been in selangor for almost 2 weeks now. haha.. so fast.. but i'm still halfway enjoying.. hehe.. i went to sunway with esther,stayed at her hse for the night. sunway was fine..we only played for a while.. haha.. anyway, i enjoyed the rides and her accompany. then now i'm alone in kl staying with my cousins.. parents back to penang already.. but i don't mind as i'm used to it. haha. celebrated my cousin's 20th birthday on the 8th of december.. had shabu shabu as dinner, which is japanese steamboat. ate much octopus. haha.. love it. xD. thn went to Neway to sing karaoke. but only sang till 12 30am as me and my lil cousin hv to go back.. aunt and uncle rushing us back.. how sad. anyway, now i'm in my anther relatives' hse.. today went to Lundry bar..drank d long island dno what nae liquor.. haha.. so expensive ler the drinks.. sigh~ today i slept for the whole day, really sleep until 5pm.. lol.. haha.. now is already 3 30am.. later hv to wake up early and go mid valley as tomorrow is public holiday. haha.. now my eyes are swollened and tired already.. wna sleep.. goody night.. ~

tired.. extremely tired

yesterday morning woke up at 6 30 am..whn back home, kept on yawning.. wanted to sleep but then i didnt.. online and went to had dinner.. after dinner went shop awhile.. whn reached home, d lipstick mum bought was broken.. had to sent her to the mall again.. at least she helped me dye my hair after we were back. now my hair is red copper colour.. haha.. today morning woek up at 6 30am again.. went to youthpark to exercise.. joined the crowd to hv d aerobics dance. haha.. vr nice.. maybe will go again. ;) went to had breakfast with ai ting. ate porridge.. on d way told her much things about my relationships.. haha.. she also thought that i'm stupid.. haha.. i am. but what could i do? sigh~ it's over.. now i wanna play..and i feel extremely tired.. need sleep and rest !!! toodles~ off to bed.. zzZ~

SPM over!

finally.. the day i've been waited for has reached!! tadaa~~ the last day of SPM for me.. hehe.. after EST paper went back home, then after bathe went to Gurney till 12am.. met new friends.. all from Union High School... what shall i say about them? hmm.. different from my friends.. totally different. haha. but glad to know them also. hehe.. gurney new wing was boring to me.. there's nothing to walk.. so empty.. and it smells like a new building. maybe if u're rich and u'll say thr's good to shop.. but i'm not.. i just waslk passed the shops.. didnt really look at the things also.. now i feel so tired.. wanna sleep.. tomorrow going to Queensbay. hope wont spend much money.. hehe.. must save.. save money.. maybe wna go search for jobs.. maybe.. depends.. haha.. goodnight.. i cant continue.. very very sleepy though i drank tea just now. haha. that tea really helps. xD it's been a tired day for me.. i'll sleep very well tonight.. haha.. toodles~

damn these robbers

just now .. and i meant just now.. mum got robbed while she went to buy mamak food. how careless is she to leave the handbag in the car and only took the purse.. but at least the purse is safe! haha.. i wondered how the robber open the car lock and took d bag in less than 5 minutes.. now my mum's car lock there gt a hole.. all thanks to the I-Don't-Know-Who. hope my mum's things will be found by kind people and will return back home. sigh~
i wish all the robbers get rob back someday!! let them feel it. and may all d robbers won't have good lives and always live in fear.. muahahhahahaha~

miss you still??

these days.. i've been thinking of you..wanted to text you but don't want to receive the answer i don't hope to receive. miss you but couldn't tell you.. hard to keep this feelings to my own.. wanted to tell you how much i want you and how much i missed u.. how much i wished we didnt break up.. these feelings.. been in my heart for months. i always wondered.. why i couldn't get over you still? why last time i could. what is the difference? it's still the same person that left me. i feel helpless. always admire other couples. seeing them happy together and sweet.. i can't imagine how my life will be in the future.. who will be my partner? who will be the one making me happy? who will be the one i love? all i can imagine is being back together with you but i know it's impossible and i promised myself i don't want that to happen again. must look forward.. sigh~ hope i can get over you by having fun with friends. may you be happy whenever, wherever you are, whoever you be with and whatever you're doing..
best wishes from me..

gonna be over soon

sorry for the late update.. thanks to SPM. finally after this week SPM will be over and i'm free. thinking of where shall i go first.. no idea yet. i'm so regret for not studying Chemistry.. it's actually quite easy if you studied.. too sad i didnt. or else i might get an A.. but it is also because of my school's exam.. always set the paper till so hard and i almost fail it. made me no more confident to study and understand it.. why i didnt study Chemistry? why? why? why?~!!! hate myself.. now still studying for Physics. the paper i always fail.. hope it will be as easy as Chemistry.. don't want to feel regret for another paper again.. have to study till finish.. 3 more days and i'll be free.. don't have to look at the books anymore. can't wait to hangout with my friends again.. till now, even Watchren has the confident to score 8 A's.. but me?? i feel like i only can score 3.. my goodness.. no confident at all. i wish i scould score at least 5 A's or i'm dead.. made a promise/deal with my mum.. i'll be broke if i don't achieve her target. dec.. college searching.. which college offers the best course for hospitality and hotel management,in Penang. if Penang none then will look further. haha. hope i'll get into a good qualification college..
God bless me for the next 3 days! ;)

I can wait forever by simple plan

a song that i like.. love the words..

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay
And I can't lie
But every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
There's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it
I just can't take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait (I can wait)
I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...

loner in school

today was such a memorable day
first time in my schooling life
i was alone in my class
i was the only one who went to school today
none of my classmates were there
i thought at least will be 2 or 3 friends but none
haha.. anyway, it was fine with me, luckily i brought my things there. so i was not bored at all.
and the teachers, came in signed the pemantauan then off went out again
but it's better to be alone as friends will make me keep on chatting and playing
that's nit my plan to go to school
plan to go there to study as if i stay at home i'll sleep
just like during moday, slept till 2pm. wasted my whole day didnt study anything
will less blog until after spm i guess
last sunday was my cousin's wedding
went to ipoh to join it
maybe will post some pictures up later
happy for her :)
but till the end of the dinner, there was a fight among my relatives. sigh~
luckily my cousin and her newly-wed husband had gone away. or else will be so shame
spm is on the coming tuesday
my my my.. so fast.. means about a month more i'll be free and spm will be over! yay~
hope it will pass quickly in a blink of an eye
;D

oh ya, OBAMA won!!! heard that he won 2/3 of the votes. congrats to him and to America
guess most people around the world support him
anyway, it's america's fortune to have him as Her president :)

best night ever!

i will not forget the best night ever in my life till now!
24th of October 2008
graduation dinner for the 2008 Penang Chinese Girls' High School' s Form5 graduates
the committee members did a superb job i must say
all of us think that too. love y'all. miss it.. wished time would stop at yesterday night
the night was fun and memorable
it was the best graduation dinner ever
even our principal also said it's good
:D
yesterday the programmes were awesome. though i missed some of it but i know they are good.
i was so high throughout the night. shouting all the way, untill i almost lost my voice. it was like partying all night long!
my class's interclass item won the best! we are so surprised to won it because other classes were good too.. ying wan cried and cant believe what she heard. haha.. i was so.. i dont know how to describe.. wow!~ love the feeling! haha
everyone was at their best in performing and dressing
all of them were so pretty. especially my class -- S5I
whole bunch of pretty girsl! i'm so lucky to be in the class. my new laopo,sin yee, became so pretty. abu, jinny, all of u.. wow!! blew me away! love you all..
my laopo.. haha.. also pretty.. as usual.. :)
at the end.. many people cried.. i wanted to cry to but i cant.. my tears just wont fall. i wish i cried too.. such a wonderful night. sigh~ :(
i bet every PCGHS 2008 form 5 girls will remember 24 of October forever. it will always be in our memories. i love 2008 PCGHS's form 5s!! you girls rock!!!
i'm sp happy to be in this school and have all of you as my friends
and oh, nicole. haha.. though i only known u better yesterday, we had a great night. had soooo much fun with you. must hangout again sometimes wey. xD.. love you hun~^^

S5I/2008 forever!!!! i love you!! S5I is the best!!! best class ever!!

new camera

yay!! finally today get a new camera.. a SLR camera
but it's not for me..i'll only use it for like a week
cz it's bro's.. next week he's coming back and i'm gonna say bye-bye to this camera..
this camera is nice
haha.. 1st time i got a camera like this..
it's Nikon D40.. dont really know what's d difference la. haha

runaway from school

didnt go to school today as they didnt go also
stayed at home doing nothing except wasting my time on9 d whole morning
later gonna go out to see camera. bro need one for his studies..
finally i can have that type of camera. haha.. i wanted to buy since beginning of the year.. still saving my money.. suddenly bro said he needs one so mum gonna buy for him.
which means i dont have to buy ..
just now signed in to msn.. aunt sent me a message saying grandpa fell down from picking rambutans.. i bet he must have fell from quite a height.. he's in hospital now. aunt is with him. but why they didnt tell mum? just now sent a message to inform mum but she didnt reply me about anything yet.. hope he's doing alright
hope he'll be fine..

神, 保佑他吧！

hard to breathe

it had started since few months ago
sometimes i feel like my heart is pain..
my heart is weak..
not strong enough to pump the blood
today.. i felt it again
while driving, my heart was pain again
seeing nowadays many young people died.. made me feel that what if i died too?
what if suddenly my heart stop beating? what if suddenly you contact me but no answer?
maybe you wont even know
if i really die, how will you feel? maybe it's just normal thing that happens daily..and you dont feel anything
but i wont do tht.. i dont wish that to happen as spm is so near.. i dont wanna lose my chane to take the exams. i need them

lies.. fakes..

today i had a weird feeling
while at school i was so happy. playing with them.. talking here laughing there
but dont know why after school dismissed, while driving.. thought of stupid questions
i think back of someone again..think that what if someday tht someone finds me back? what shall i do? but i gave myself an answer : that someone is not going to find you back anymore. it's over..
i cant really get over it though outside i may seem like it.
while driving back from school, i was so moody. dont wanna talk at all
after reached home, only me alone. dad went out.
i looked at myself in the mirror, i dont know who am i anymore
what am i? i feel like i'm a faker. i feel that everything that had happened was not happening in my life. it all became memories.. i feel like crying. i wanna spill out everything but i cant. i dont know what to say to release my feelings.. i kept on telling my friends that i wanna flirt. thinking of it, i know i cant. people kept on telling me that i can find a better one.. but my problem is i cant find the one i have feel with. why i cant move on my life?
i really hate my life
i wish i could control the time. control everything that's gonna happen.
it's been a month.. i told myself that i would not believe in you again.. you gave me fake hopes, fake happiness, fake laughters.. you filled my life with lies.. i really wish i can stop thinking of you. but i cant. i still wish to hear from you.. if we have one more chance, i might will choose to be lied again.. choose to let my life be filled with lies again..

for now, i know i'm stupid.

bruises

yesterday dont know what happened to me
stepped on the wrong steps and almost fell off from the stairs
luckily i held on the bars but i still got bruises
then at night, walk pass the chairs also knocked on the chair.. what la.. really so careless.. :S
hope i wont be this careless in the exam
haha..
today dont know what happen
ytd 2am only slept but today 8am when the alarm rang i woke up! amazingly.. haha.. normally i would just off the alarm and snoozed off
xD
yester went to the chem intensive class for 3 hrs.. unfortunately we only abled to learn the last 2 chapter of form4.. form 5 didnt touch at all.. i'm dead.. but thanks to her, i'm now more clear in those chapters =)

my bruises =(

graduate magazine

yay~
today finally got our graduate magazines
thanks to all the committee's workship in completing the magazine
and also the form 5 students.. haha..
i never thought we'll get it so fast as we were late behind when we submitted our things in
haha.. anyway
i'm happy *grin*

this whole week.. i didnt study at all.. i'm so dead now.. yaiks.. exam is in 3 weeks!! and till now i still hv to many unanswered questions.. oh my... TT

13 Oct 2008

finally i knw my english results already
haha
i got 77%.. :)
hv to be satisfied with it
just now while having dinner watched leo ku's music video
i dont know why but that video made me cried
maybe too romantic or too sad
either way, suddenly feel the lyrics are so true..
*sigh*
that's life learned a new phrase today :

" let loose of what you can't control. serenity will be yours "

hope it's true
haha~

miss it

read back the old messages you sent me
think back how sweet and happy we used to be
your promisses, your words to me.. no longer true
heart broken
miss those days..

you made me happy

yesterday and the day before yesterday
suddenly i look back at your pictures
i didn't know why but there was smile on my face when i was looking at your pictures
i thought i've gotten over you. but seems like the feelings are still there. just buried deep inside. kept silently as memory.
you look as happy as always in the pictures
maybe i thought back how we used to be
maybe it's because the smile on your face, makes me smile
many things could make me happy, but not as happy as u made me
i always think that i'm lucky
to be with you
though we're over, i still feel lucky
maybe in the future i will find another one that can make me happy as u did
no matter what, may God bless you and protect you
may you be happy and healthy always
i'll always be there for you.

i didnt pass my physic :(

i was wrong.. haha.. i didnt pass my physic..i only got 47%.. haiz.. and i also failed my add maths
so sad.. i only scored 46%.. anyway, add maths i admit i sucks in it.. will work harder in it
so totally i failed 3 subjects! =X
till now the only subject i still don't know is english
but i think i won't fail it. haha.
today was damn tired
slept for 3 hrs
yesterday was sleepy too
slept at 10.30pm. long time didnt sleep that early already
today will study till midnight if i can. have to race with the time already. i already lose to it long time. must chase it back! ;)
now i wanna go hv my dinner
so late only eat sure will be fat already
sigh~

what's my feeling?

yesterday was my school's graduation dinner performances rehearsal. i met her again. but i'm glad as i don't have that feeling anymore. haha. i was so happy for the whole day. today met her again. both of us acted like strangers. it's normal to me. hehe. i don't know what's my feeling. all i know is, i don't wanna disturb her anymore. she's happy, i'm happy for her. but i will find my own happiness too. :) after being single again, i found my happiness again. i found back my long lost freedom, carefree, happy-go-lucky pals. i'm glad that they're back with me again. oh yea.. today after recess, on my way to my class with 2 of my friends, there were this bunch of form 4 girls.. i don't know what are they talking about. maybe is about my friends and me or maybe not. but the way they say is so sarcastic. back in class, my friends told me that those girls always stare at them, like they were their enemies but in fact they dont even know them. she said they will look at you from head to toe like examinine you. why don't they examinine themselves? why they wanna spend their time in observing other people? better go use that time to learn to be polite and upgrade themselves. anyway, these girls have no relations with me. i don't wanna have anything with them too.. less people less problems. :P

i passed!!

haha.. i'm happy to know that i passed my malay paper for the first time this year!! for the past years i have been studying, i never fail my malay paper. but do not know why, i failed twice this yr! and now for the trial results, i finally passed! haha.. though the result is nt tht good, just got 56%, i should be satisfied. ;) other than that, i think i also passed my physics.haha. thank God for it. this trial exam, i didnt really finish studying all the chapters. some i just kinda flipped through. after studied this few days, feel that i should study earlier, then i could obtain more marks in the trial exam. but it's too late.. boo-hoo~ now i know most of my results already. i failed my history. only got 47%. teacher said it's ok. above 30 in our school trial we could pass in the spm already. so i guess maybe i could get a B if i work harder on it. besides that, i also know my chinese. same marks as my malay paper. hope my english won't get the same marks though. if can sure hope will get higher. haha. i'm scare of my language subject. my languages are terrible.. i can't write well. i'm just always out of idea what to write for the essays. i'm ready to let go of tht 3 A's. :X

bro's gone

finally
bro had gone back to KL
haha
finally peace is back
but my camera is gone
sobx~
bro took it as he might need it
but i took something from him -- PSP
haha
actually i was quite surprised that he would allow me to have it
*grin*
anyway
last few days holiday is too short
not even enough for me to finish a subject
haiz.. i'm still studying slowly form5 physic. form 4's i havent touch yet! no more time for me
feel like crying
these days i feel happy
no idea why.maybe i'm enjoying my life
no worries, no burdens and no controlling
totally free..well except control from my mum and worries for the spm
SPM really kills me
left 2 more months then i'll be partying or maybe working
haha
my college.. mostly will be in penang as KL's life expenses will be a burden. hope i'll manage to find a good college to go into. ;)

how my bro described me

this thing is like ages.haha.. i think like 2 yrs ago of what my bro wrote about me.haha.
anyway.. i like to keep it :)

She is cute when she was young,

She is rude when she grow up,

She is sweet when she eager for things,

She is mean when she have her things,

She is sad when i m happy,

She is happy when she make fun of me,

She is kind when she likes it,

She is cruel when nobody around,

She looks normal when face to face,

She looks crazy with the picture of her face,

She is good at sports or others i dunno,

She is bad at singing i m for sure,

She is the only sister i have,

For now or ever that will never change!!

Oi, nice lerrr?? Whahahahaha

PS: it’s true of what he wrote about me..

;p

a song i like recently..love the words

眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控
回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措
你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

finally i found out

haha..what i found out?
something which disturbed me
but now i found out already, i'm good as normal
the thing is.. i found out my ex is in a relationship.. with who?? someone i don't know
haha.. but then it's a bit disappoinment when i heard about it due to something she told me last time
i couldn't concentrate in my study
anyway, now i found out the real thing
and i can concentrate again ^^
all i can say is i wish her every happiness^^
it's a good thing she's over me
haha
am i over her? right now, i'm not.. i'm in d precess of it
but i will soon be over her
haha
after spm, i'm gonna be aiming for a new one! better than my past! haha
and i'll be happy with her.
right now, spm will be my aim.
wish me luck (cross fingers)

no idea what title

2 days didnt post already
what had happen?
i knew some of my results already
haha
but then the results are still good
cause the bad ones i havent know yet
haha
plan to go out today(saturday) but mum dont allow
said i have to study at home
so after i post this i have to study :(
promised watchreen but didnt able to do it. feel bad
anyway after spm i'll be free
spm is near. on thursday i just got the timetable for spm.. wow.. the time is sooooo packed!
no time to rest
almost everyday the exam starts from 8a.m. till 4.30p.m. how to rest?
i scare i'll sleep while exam
haha
but luckily this time the exam i wont be in the hall so not so pressure
haha
i'll be in class.. maybe is with my clasS? xD
anyway
i will work hard in this period
wanna try my best and get good results
dont wanna disappoint my mum
and i had a deal with my mum
if i lose, i'll be in poor state
haha
recently i like a song
So What by Pink
good music and lyrics
i wanna be like in the song except the rockstar part
:]

study hard wiing yi!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! ^^

Poem

Life is full of sorrows
Life is full of happiness
Each accompanied by tears
Each accompanied by laughters
People are different
People are special
They are all around you
Wherever you may go
Different people different hearts
Different voices different lives
But there is one that might
Shares our lives and make it bright
It depends on your luck
To find the ugliest duck
And make it the swan of your heart
-wiing yi-

smoking~

yesterday my friends were suspecting me smoking
lol.. haha.. it made me laugh! i'll show some pictures that i'm smoking later on
xD
today the day was fine
not as bad as i thought
;]
trial finally is over
finally i can sleep early without worrying bout what questions will be out tomorrow
but i'm still scare of 1 thing.. my results
i do not want to know my results as i did vr vr badly, i think it will be my worst so far :S
left about a month before SPM
time's running out
but it also means my freedom will reach soon!
haha
wait for me ;D
here are some of the pictures i took this afternoon
me...smoking... hahaha

"smoking"~ =P

enjoying my "cigarette"

ta daa~!! my cigarette = lollipop!

heart skipped a beat

just received your sms
about the china milk issue and it's a forwarded message
but don't know why
my heart beats faster
untill i could feel the beat in my brain.. hurts my mind
i feel breathless..

think of you again

today when i woke up

i wished ytd was just a bad dream

but i know it is not

have to face the reality

that you are out of my life

today at school

my add maths paper 2. i don't knw how to answer at all

guess i'm ready to fail this paper

but i will do more exercise after this

i hv to thank you for being out of my life

let me could concentrate in my studies for this 1 month before i'll sit for the exam

now there's nothing else for me to worry or care about anymore except spm

while bathing and having lunch

i thought of the situations if we are friends

we had tht experience before

so i guess by the time we could talk and laugh again

will be the time when i'm over you

or else i couldn't treat you like a normal friend

but no matter what our relation is, if you need me, i'll be there for you. maybe just as a normal friend..

no more of it

finally i felt the coldness in you
really cold
finally my tears had fall
will never shed my tears for you again
you're out of my life
i'm such a fool to be serious with you
your feelings changed so fast
so fast till i couldn't manage to be prepared for it
i'm crushed
luckily i have my friends
thanks to you all. i'll be fine and i'll be strong
nothing's gonna bring me down
there's still much for me to do
can't stop here

we could be friends? why i don't think so?
it's best that we don't contact anymore
don't wish to be fooled again
for the last time i'll be writing this and feeling this to you
"i love you"
no more of it after now

love is only for myself
for others
will only bring hurt to myself

tears

feel like crying
but tears just running in the eyes
i'm sure at night i will cry
silently..
thought of a song
"lonely won't leave me no more"
right now
it will always be beside me
follows me wherever i go

gone going

just back from tuition
while at tuition
i sent a message to you
finally i got an answer from you
after all these.. all i get was an alphabet.. 'k'..
heart was filled with disappoinments and thorns
but i had expected it
there's nothing i can do
but to move on with my life without you
i will try to get over you
soon.. before the exam.. i will get over you in a week
i can't waste my time anymore
i'm satisfied
at least you are honest with me
i accept it
just can't believe that it all changed so fast
been fooled again
now all that's left for me--no more.. all gone..

happy morning

I started off my day well
went to had breakfast with Watchreen
planned to go Old Town but it hasn't open yet
so changed to Jalan Tengah's hawker food stalls
ate quite much
then back home accompanie parents to breakfast again but I only had a cup of tea
:)
although there's still this gap between me and mum, at least we're talking
I'm scared that we won't talk :S
now I want to study add maths a bit before i go tuition
later afternoon will have tuitions
will be a tired one
'sigh~'
tomorrow will have my add maths paper 2 exam
so dead..
:X

wasting my time

till now
i'm still awake
wasting my sleeping time
what am i doing?
other than staring at the computer
if i use these time to study
for sure i'll score well
too bad i'm not
i'm just wasting my time

you've changed

nowadays
i wonder what are we
what am i to you
are we still the same?
or maybe we have became strangers
recently, both of us seldom message
everytime i message you, i'll feel that i'm disturbing you
i dare not chat with you long
now, i don't even know what can i talk with you
there's no more connection between us
i hate this feeling
but what can i do?
i should be happy as now you are more concentrate in your studies
to you the most important is studies
i totally agree with you
but the way you treat me now is like i'm the last thing in your mind
you gave me a feeling that you don't care for me anymore
you don't even care whether i'm exists or not
you had forgotten about me
i kept on thinking that maybe we should reconsider our relationship
i don't want to be having an empty relation
maybe i shouldn't think much about this and put all my concentration in my exam
maybe after the exam then only we consider whether we should be together
right now all i need is just an answer from you
do you still love me?
why i can't feel it anymore?
want to know my answer for my question?
you don't love me anymore

i've been forgotten by you.. i'm threw behind your mind.. i'm a stranger to you now..

tired day

just back from shopping
had a fight with mum..
but it was my fault. so i can't blame her..
but why will i become like that?
why will i became so money faced?
she told me something that i think is the truth
i really care about faces.. why? why can't i be more caring to them?
why will i becoming one of the type of person that i hate?
i don't want to be that type of person
i want to change it
i must change!
hope tomorrow will be alright :)

physics exam

today's physics..
what else can i say..
i'll sure score vrvrvr superbly "well"
till my report book will have another red ink again
haha
wait till my mum find out and i'll be away from the computer for long till after spm
but that's most likely not gonna happen
haha..cz i'm glued to the computer
:P
anyway..
if i can get 10 marks for that paper,chemistry,and pass for the others..wow.. i'll be satisfied (truthfully i'll be more satisfied if i passed all!! :])
2 more days of exam and will be the real one
no more time
haiz
so scare and tired of it
wanna relax!!

2 days

Two days without your messages
feel so alone but what else can i do?
u asked me to concentrate in studies but i cant
keep on checking on my phone
wish that will receive your message
but always with disappointments
i know u have to study too as your exam is reaching
so i'll text you after my trial
haha
i cant stop myself from thinking of you
everynight will look through your pictures
read back the texts you sent me
i promise you, i'll try to put more concentration in my studies
i will do well and better than what you expected! i must!! :)
i cant wait till december
to meet u again
hold u in my arms again
i miss you..

important period before exam

finally i'm back in writing a post

haha.. long time didnt write though..

never realized it

anyway..i met with my babe during may holiday

spent some days there too

haha

it was a memorable one though we had a bit of unexpected things happened

anyway, now i'm in the middle of my school's trial exam

i'm gonna have to work 200% harder if i wanna score well. or else it's gonna be disappoinment

tmr will be having BM paper 2 and physic paper 2.. both also not my pro subjects.. always fail in these two..TT

anyway, been *studying* LATELY in d middle of the night

haha.. hence i gt thick eyebags and dark circles..

looks so OLD now..

next tues will finish my trial thn the real one will be coming

wish to discipline myself

haha

best of luck to me tmr ;)